At Last....(Ella Fitzgerald)

Finally I can go online with ease...broadband?fuh....Hampeh....hahahaha....

It's already April and I am heading to that big fat 20!hahahaa....

Can't really believe I'm almost 20, bcoz people might think I'm a seondary school student...hahahaa(perasan)

Unlike most people, I like to grow old, mainly bcoz older people receive better treatment by people, don't believe me?try grow long beard and have lines on your forehead, hunch a bit and walk in somewhere important like office etc...hahaahahahhaa....

So it's almost a week at home I'm expecting something good will happen, something that can highlight my return(cheeeehh)....but not yet so far...

I'm still 'heavying' myself if you know what I mean...:)

OK, that's for today, ciao!

The End Is Near:The Sequel

I'm loving this title..hahahaha...partly because yes it's true the end is near, yes, the end of the world is near, only we don't know when and I'm doubting in 2012 becasue it can be sooner than that, or later than that, so don't waste your time counting when is the end of the world because you'll never know, and partly becasue even when people predict 2012 is the Doomsday people still won't repent. So what's the point really?

The end I'm saying here is the edn of the semester, I'm gonna go home this Friday!! Yey!! My last paper is on Thursday, gonna have some fun with my friends afterwards, the plan is to have a nice picnic at Sungai Pisang and then start packing for HOME, my beloved HOME....:))))..although this rescheduled thing(yeah, my flight got rescheduled, later than the original time) troubles me a bit, but nonetheless, home is still my destination right???

So, cheers to a place call HOME!!!

From Deep Within

I never thought it would be this much a hurt to me
I always thought this could be a good thing
I always thought this is for the best
From what I saw it is the best
But for me myself I don't know
It's just...too much for me now
I never try to make important decision for the best for myself
I always feel like the need to sacrifice for the greater good
Which I will not be getting
For I give it away
I thought I will be the good guy here
But almost all the time
I feel this emptiness deep inside of me
It's like a hole
Only growing bigger and bigger at times
Only hollow, only sorrow
Masked by my smiles and laughter
I guess I never stand up for what I love
I just give it away
You know, people say, love is something you must give away
People also say sometimes you have to let something you love go
But for how long do I have to keep letting something I love go?
Forever?

Plenty Of Fish In The Sea?

Love is not just about you giving love to somebody, without them giving it back to you. Nor did it happened the other way round. Love is about mutual relationship between two people, when you gave it to somebody, they took it with open arms and open hearts.

My love is not here yet, I should just be patient and wait for the time to come. Not now, maybe tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, another five years, who knows. People always say, there's plenty of fish in the sea, you miss a fish, there will always be next(I guess that's true, not a fan of fishing...:P). So I guess I have to put my bait in the see a little while longer, reel it in slowly and slowly till I think a big catch is coming.

To you two, I'm really happy for you, and I will always pray for your happiness...cheers! :)

Will You Stand Your Ground? Or You Just Flee From This Battlefield?

I want to believe

That the light still shines

Although I might be blind to see

I want to feel the warmth

I want to feel the comfort

But as far as I know

I'm freezing cold

Even with my thick sweater couldn't hold

I want to believe

That spring is in the air

Although I might be colour blind to see

All the different flowers blooming

I want to see the colours like rainbow

I want to see the red rose

blue periwinkle

white azaleas

But as far as I see

Only gray is there to see

I still want to believe

But for how long should I keep my hope high?

For how long should I stand my ground?

For how long should I be tortured?

Before I fall forever

Or I could just flee

From this treacherous battlefield

From this neverending misery

The last question for the answer I seek

Do you still want to believe?

Exam Week

Portfolio week was on Monday and Tuesday, got Malay language exam on Wednesday ans there will be people coming to visit the landscape architecture department in the morning till noon, followed by replacement of history class as well as a bit of test..well, pretty much a busy week, despite the end of studio still no rest..:), what can I say anyway right...just live it, and love it...:) (i'm keeping myself in positive mood here guys, im going back really soon..another :)...hahahaha)

So guys, wish me luck! And o Allah, give me strength to carry on as much as I can despite all the troubles I'm facing right now. I know you did these to test me. May I succeed in overcoming these things. Ameen.

Moving On

I still feel like my grandma is around. Seriously, I don't feel anything, and it gets me feeling kinda selfish. Am I suppose to feel very sad about her passed away? Am I suppose to cry?

Moving on with my life.

We all should move on right?

I got my favorite for AI already!

1-Lee Dewyze

2-Siobhan Magnus

3-Casey James

4-Aaron Kelly

5-Crystal Bowersox

My top five!