You know sometimes you reach the low point in your life where you think that it's not worth it, even though you want it so much but then the more you want it, it slips away even further. This time is my lowest point, people may not see much changes in the way I appear, but emotionally speaking, I am deeply annoyed, disturbed, pretty much disappointed, and I think, this is the end of it. The end of what? The end of my quest, having fought with myself for months, chasing the wind I can't even see, grabbing the water with bare hands but then it falls back into the river, trying to collect sunlight but then all I got is empty sack. I am empty. Very empty. I don't even know what to do, or what really to say. I don't even know why am I so sensitive about this. It's just a damn picture. Well, pictures actually. People says picture tells a thousand words. I do got that, only it hurts me. I don't know if I interpreted wrongly, but all I can think is that.
TO YOU-I don't know know how to put this into good words, I like you, and I might love you, but I don't want to rush into this, and I don't even know what you feel about me. But I really, really like you. Every songs I heard reminds me of you, I only picture you. Every love story I watched I imagine are we going to be like this? Are we going to have this kind of stories? Are we going to have those moments? I may not look like the guy you might picture in your head, the kind that really put you into sweet dreams, the kind of guy that every time you sees him you smile. I know I am just a little kid to you, the kind that joke around on everything, but I have and I know serious part of me. One thing is about being in a relationship. It's just the other side that only people who accepted me can see it. If you accepted me, you'd see it. And you'd know me deeper than this. I don't have that kind of courage to talk to you, I am a coward I admit that, but not because I am afraid of you, not the things I am going to say, but I am afraid of what will happen next. You might hate me for what I say, you might not talk to me anymore, you might not even look at me. I know at some point 'like' turns to 'love'. I just want you to know, my 'like' to you has changed already. But I am ready to back off if you have your own choice already. I don't want to fight a losing battle.
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