Trip To The Doctor

Hey guy's it's been a while since I updated both my blogs. Mostly because I don't feel like it. But today's the day. Please bear with me just a little longer. ;)

Tomorrow's my trip to the doctor, this time in Sibu which is like 2 hours drive from my hometown. I'll be meeting with ENT (ear, nose and throat) specialist to get my nose checked. A doctor in Mukah, who is also my friend told me interior of my nose is swollen and he thinks I should get that checked out, for precaution. I think my friends in university knows that my nose bled quite often. AHAHA. So yeah, maybe this time I'll know what's wrong with me. :P

But hey, of you're reading this, pray for me. I hope there's nothing serious. 

I'll write more tomorrow.

Bye!

They Are At Firms, I Am At Home

I heard some good news from my friends. They have started their practical training in various landscape architecture firms. Everyone got a firm each which was pretty bad-ass. I should have been there with them, experiencing what it's like to work with real landscape architects, it would have been challenging, but it would have also been fun. I know what my decision's repercussion would be against me, but as I said before, I need a very much needed break. But it doesn't stop me from being jealous of where my friends are at now. A good jealous of course. I can't stop thinking, what if...just what if I don't take a break. What if I plough through the semesters like every other people, what if, I was healthy enough?

I can still remember in my second year, second semester. I was doing fine the first few months, great projects, I was really enthusiastic, but something happened towards the end. I don't want to discuss about it, it was a health issue really, but something happened that made me, kinda lose it. And I remember how hard it was when I was in London for two weeks after that. It was a journey of a lifetime for me, so for that, I plough through. But yeah, it was crazy.

But again, this isn't about me, this is about my friends. My successful friends, my friends who never give up like I did, I really am happy to know that they doing well after I'm gone, I'm glad that they made contact with me sometimes to update with what's going on. I heard what people commented them on, and they were positive comments, so of course I'm very happy for them. I'm feeling like tearing up writing this, seriously! I missed them so much, I feel like I've grown so much after spending a few years with these guys. But I know if I were to go back there, I have to accept the fact that it won't be the same again. We're not in the same class, in the same studio, it's going to be a little bit hard to handle and getting used to new people. 

I'm not really good with new people, but when we were in our first year, we had this part-time lecturer, to me one of the best lecturer we've ever had, although he was doing part-time teaching. He really gathered us together as a family. The first activity we did together was, a short trekking to a small waterfall just behind our university. It was great, it was the moment that I feel like, 'hey, these guys aren't that bad...' And we just clicked.

And the studio, our first studio, it was like home to us all. We've got meeting table, work stations, then pantry plus a place to rest and sleep, and dining table, no, not dining table, a 'bar' we called it. And when we were forced to abandoned that studio for a tutorial room as a studio during second semester, we were at first  mad about it. But since we were like the smallest batch compared to other batches, we understand it, although that took quite a while to sink in.

We've made a lot of memories together, you would understand too if you've gone through university years or college years. If you've created a strong bond with a group of people, it's hard to let go, no matter how long it was. It's been more than year since I've met them. I know I've missed on a lot of things. And I also know I missed them.

The Gossip

I've been hanging out quite a lot this time round with my hometown friends. Even more after we decided to do a 'business venture' together. And yesterday, we talked and talked, and my friend asked me about the gossip she's been hearing. Interestingly, it was about me! I know, I know, it wasn't supposed to be something to be excited for, but I can't help it! :D 

She knew exactly what happened but people kept asking her since we've been hanging around quite a lot lately, but not just the two of us of course, with two other friends. So she when she told me about that I was like, 'I've been waiting for this moment, I knew it will turn out someday'. And yesterday was the day it came to my knowledge. She said when she told them what I told her, they replied that I lied to her. 

To be honest, I have nothing to hide. If they were asking me, I'd told them what happened. I always do when they asked me. But when they don't I won't say anything. I'm not very much of a talker. But of course, people just doesn't want to listen to direct answers from me. They wanted to dig up stories from someone else. 

Like I said, I'm not much of a talker, a conversationalist, so I don't go around telling people this and that about me. Of course I'd appreciate it if they ask me instead of listening other people. But that's how the world work sometimes. You can't have all the things the way you want it. Unless you're a dictator of course. :P

But nah, I don't really care. And since this is kinda interesting for me, so why not blog it? Come on, I'm basically an artist right now, LOL! People gossip about me yawww! :P

p/s-i'm not really proud about that. but i can't wait to prove them wrong :D

Alternative Reality

I know, I know, there are no such things as alternative reality (maybe some scientist would believe so). But to me, the alternative reality is something that I watch on TV. No, not the news of course, those are pretty much real thing, but the TV shows, the sitcoms, the dramas, all those stuff (except reality TV, although I believe Jersey Shore, Kardashians stuff and Real Housewives stuff is in between lies and over-dramatic scenes).

I do watch a lot of TV shows. I may not watch then directly from TV because mostly I downloaded the stuff and watch them on my laptop, but still, pretty much the same. Now, what's the deal with alternative reality? Have you watch Friends? I love Friends, and sometimes I feel like I wanted to go there and live with them, yeah, I wanna live with Chandler, Joey and Rachel and Phoebe and maybe Ross and Monica... Get what I mean? And then I watch Community, I wanna go to Greendale Community College and join their study group! I wanna be friends with Abed and Troy, have a debate with Jeff and probably mock Britta for whatever she stands for, maybe fell in love with Annie because she's so sweet! And maybe treat Shirley and Pierce with more respect than anyone of the group. 

Call me crazy, but I do feel like that sometimes. I guess, those habit back when I was a child didn't die when I grew up. I mean ,we all when we were kids played Power Rangers, pretended to be them right? No, is it just me? AHAHAHAHA. But now instead of power rangers I go with much more exaggerated human characters. 

Well, whatever it is. I'm still pretty much sane. I can still differentiate reality and TV, but yeah I secretly wanted to be a character on TV.

Adios!

Ramble

Assalamualaikum guys!

It's been a while not to post anything here. It feels like a ghost town.

Nope, kidding. It wasn't. I got another blog up and running, so I'm focussing on that one. It doesn't mean I've forgotten about this one. I mean, this is my first blog ever, it's gonna stay here. 

I've got a few jobs to do, mostly freelance work of course, and of course, in the design field. I'm not gonna say what, but at least you know I'm doing something. I'm planning something else also in them middle of all this craziness. 

I just finished watching Shameless, which to me is one of the best show on TV (American TV that is, there's no way that show's ever going to be aired in this country). About a very dysfunctional but rather tight knit family and friends. It's heartbreaking sometimes, it's funny, it's serious, full of its ups and downs that you know, a lot of people can relate to. But one of the thing that best describe the show is, 'shit happens, and you just got to rise up from that toilet bowl, and don't forget to flush it'. If you know what I mean.

Well, I should be doing some works. I'm going to be busy Thursday till Friday. I'm going to sleep a few things off. Clear my head off first and start fresh tomorrow. 

Chow!

New Blog: Ajam Oppical

Assalamualaikum semua!

Sekarang aku dah ada blog baru, dari segi content wise, mungkin akan lebih kurang personal posts, tapi more kinda, information punya blog. Aku tak jamin akan kosong personal post, cuma kurang sedikit. But I don't intend for this blog to die, nope. I'm keeping this one. I'm proud of the things I've written in here, but I need a new platform for something else. 

My new blog is already up and running, so sila-sila lah visit okeh? :P Follow terus lagi digalakkan! :D

Klik disini untuk ke blog AjamOppical :D Thanks!!

What I Miss

Assalamualaikum semua!

Budak-budak UIA dah start kelas dah, seminggu dah kot. Kalau aku cakap aku tak rindu, memang tipu lah sangat. Dulu aku rasa macam akulah yang selalu datang paling awal kat kampus, AHAHA. Yelah, nak pergi sana dari Sarawak kena naik flight all that stuff, boleh tahan lamalah (tapi agak2 orang Kelantan naik bas lagi lama kot). 

Banyak benda yang aku rindu kat sana, terutama kawan-kawan. So kadang-kadang nak lepas rindu tu aku tengok balik gambar kitorang, AHAHA, I know, creepy, but it's the truth. So, ari ni aku nak list apa yang aku rindu tentang UIA.

1) Aku rindu suasana busy di KAED. Walaupun studio tutup pukul 11 setiap hari (kalau tak mintak extend) tapi ramai gak yang cari bilik tutorial untuk buat kerja, kadang kena kongsi, kat gallery lagilah ramai kengkadang...rindu pulak nak tengok budak-budak KAED tengah struggle buat projek..er, design project okay!

2) Aku rindu makanan kat UIA. Aku ni jenis yang boleh kata agak konsisten when it comes to the thing that I like, ataupu dengan perkara yang dah biasa dibuat regularly. Macam dulu masa kat PJ, tiap-tiap malam nak makan chicken chop sambil.....eh, yang tu tak payah cakap, bila kat UIA Gombak, pergi HS order Nasi Goreng Kampung Tak Nak Sayur kat kedai Noodles ape ntah, kalau kat Mahallah Ali beli yogurt ngan yong tau fu, pergi foodcourt KAED beli Nasi Ayam, pergi Farouq, Ayam KFC Cinta atau Daging masak kicap, tambah ngan French Fries, kat Bilal nasi lemak murah, perghh...rindu siottt!

3) Rindu nak berjalan pergi kelas. Sememangnya aku jenis yang jarang bersukan, so macam berjalan tulah aku nye sukan aku boleh buat, sambil nak pergi kelaskan. 

4) Rindu nak pergi berenang. Dulu pergi berenang ngan Akram ngn Kamal. Awal-awal berkecimpung (perghh) ngan berenang ni, malu kot. Nampak semua macam berenang dengan teknik, aku ni orang kampung mana blajar teknik-teknik berenang yang betol, AHAHA, dulu mandi sungai je, dari jeti buat cannonball terus, terapung ke tak lepas tu belakang kira AHAHA. Bila dah belajar sikit-sikit dari Kamal, okaylah...kurang sikit malunya....

5) Pergi 'shopping' di kedai printing dalam UIA. AHAHA. Kalau tak print, pergi sana nak beli ais-krim je pun ngan Akram ngan Anis, ahaha...kalau petang, duduk dekat depan sungai, walaupun kalau tengok air sungai tu lama-lama boleh menurunkan selera makan. AHAHA. Tapi kadang bila dah dekat tarikh submission, boleh tahan ramai yang berbaris nak print, especially kalau print yang besar-besar punya. Nak murah punya pasal, kat luar mahal! 

6) Rindu nak drive kereta Arinah. AHAHA. Yang ni sumpah, aku biasa dengan tanpa segan silunya pinjam kereta Kancil Arinah, tapi buat baik sikitlah, macam, nak beli makanan nanti tolong belikan makanan diorang sekali. Trick ni work very well tengah diorang busy buat drawing, kekekeke. Kadang-kadang mintak drive balik malam-malam kalau rasa malas nak berjalan, yang penting aku drive dulu AHAHA.

7) Rindu nak rasa 'free' setiap kali lepas Solat Jumaat. Sebab lepas tu rasa macam studio dah tak lama dah, and bila lecturer keluar je rasa macam seluruh beban kat bahu dah tak ada, padahal kerja belambak nak kena buat before Isnin ;P.

8) Rindu nak pergi Pasar Malam, walaupun kadang-kadang pergi dengan niat yang tak berapa baik di hati (contoh macam nak usya budak BMI AHAHA) tapi paling penting kena carik cendawan goreng, perghhh! Lepas tu yong tau fu...fullamak, probably berbelanja tahap gaban setiap hari Rabu tu.

9) Mungkin rindu nak eskep kelas? erk!

10) Rindu dengan rasa, tak pernah sunyi. Setiap hari ada je benda. Kalau tak jumpa kawan-kawan studio, jumpa kawan satu Kuliyyah, kalau tak tu, jumpa kawan sekolah dulu, kalau tak tu jugak, jumpa rakan-rakan satu negeri.

Aku memang rindu kan suasana tu. Orang kata, pengalaman tu tak boleh di beli, kita kena lalui baru boleh dapat. Tapi aku tak tau lah boleh pergi ke tak nanti, Aku harap sangat dapat pergi balik sana, walaupun sekejap.